It’s been 2 weeks since my first day in my new school. A school where everyone is a stranger. A school where people recognized faces but not yours. When people knew you’re a transferee, they can’t resist not asking what school I came from. I can’t remember how many times I was asked. And the next question will follow, the one I’ve been wishing I can avoid, “Bakit ka lumipat?”. I actually feel awkward and uneasy every time I had to think why I chose to transfer. Maybe because I know that the excuses I’ve been giving is to convince myself and not the others. Though the answer I’ve been giving is really true, I feel like it’s too low for me to make a big decision out if it. This are the only possible reasons I can think of, just choose and think what ever in those are my real reasons:
- I don’t like the campus.
- I don’t like the system.
- I don’t like the people.
- I don’t like my classmates.
- I don’t like my professors.
- I’m not contented.
- I’m not happy.
- I feel incomplete.
- The school is boring.
- I always feel tired.
- I’m avoiding someone.
- I’m not learning.
- I want to experience transferring school.
- I don’t feel the gush of excitement every time I come to school.
- There’s no handsome in the school.
Lewl on the last part. Haha. Kidding aside. Like I’ve said, choose whatever you like. It doesn’t matter anymore.
But I don’t regret transferring. I’m happy now. Even if most of the time I’m alone. Even if I have to exert more efforts in my studies because I can’t depend on my classmate, which is most of them are still strange to me. Even if I don’t have a permanent group of friends (because in my 9 subjects I’ve been joining 5 sections: 1AMC, 2AMC, 2BMC, 3AMC, 3BBE). It’s really hard to be irregular. But do you know what’s good with this school? There’s so many place you can hang-out and people wouldn’t care whatever you do. There’s a snack bar, canteen , library (where I see some people eating, chatting and this I know isn’t new, sleeping. Literally. For G’s sake, it’s a library! Gahhhh. It’s really hilarious!), and side tables at football field . I noticed that students here have so much freedom. When students use cellphones during class, the professor will just say ‘keep those cellphones’-- in a very unconvincing voice. And if you do that again, they’ll just say their line again until you reach the nth time, unlike in other school when professors caught you twice your cellphones will be confiscated? In San Beda, they will just act like nothing happen. But students here are still responsible and not boastful. Unlike those schools that give too much restriction, their students tend to more wild and uncontrollable.
Since most of my classes are with the freshmen, everyone’s been talking about their first day. How college life is really different with high school days, etc. Mine’s different, “How your new school?” All I can say right now is: I’m having fun, I’m happy, I’m contented.
So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Matthew 6:34 |
Well, what I’ve written now was a plain observation for my first 2 weeks stay in San Beda. It’s still too early to make judgments and I still have 2 years and 9 months anyway. And hopefully, no more extensions.
